MOULD SWEAT and VERMIN

Mould sweat and vermin

Ringing ears dizzy

Golden liquid perception

into darkness

I followed my rabbit

Guides to the nerves

holding their roots

wound fingertips blue

to not quite let go

The only safe space I've known

So  long 

time is no measure

I can see whisps of light dancing

asking

My heart gives a burst

and then pain

Rest is too long

Nightmares are sleep

I cannot hear my waking 

screams

Trapped in my body

I will fight to survive

An Athlete with no medal

No one can see

Just let me be

Fight to survive

Worn wet black figured holes

Cotton string houses 

upon traps built

Tiny particles ammonia wet must

It drips down the walls

subtle

It doesn't come clean

Nothing comes clean